Hi, I’m Steph! I’m a Scorpio (Pisces moon), Jack White’s biggest fan, an embarrassing dancer, a destroyer of hot dogs, and a pumper of fists. I’m also a 20-something design student, currently working in an office job in the finance industry, and in between I like to sing, take pictures, and go on adventures.
Over the years a journey I have been on is overcoming my anxiety, which not so long ago kept me constantly in my bedroom with a head full of fear. It hasn’t been the easiest thing to tackle, but it’s been so worth it. Everytime I reach a new level of confidence, there’s kind of no words really? It’s the best feeling I think because it feels like you discover a part of yourself you didn’t know existed before. Like the first time I made a stranger laugh- I do it all the time now! Sometimes by accident… Yet it doesn’t bother me anymore, and more than that I learned that I’ve got a great sense of humour.
I’ve decided this year that I want to start writing all this down, and what better way than a blog? Its scaring me to share my ~real feelings~ with the outside world, but that’s the whole point of this, right? When I get out of my head and make strangers laugh it’s doing good in the world that wouldn’t have otherwise existed, and of course the same goes for blogging.
You don’t have to have an anxiety disorder to need more courage in your life. A huge area for me that is requiring the ol’ facing of fears is health & fitness. In that area I don’t necessarily get nervous, but I certainly have a lot of nasty limiting beliefs up in my brain that are pretty scary.
Anyway, this is all going to be a lot of fun! Expansion can be uncomfortable, but your happiest, most creative, coolest self is waiting for you out there. That’s what I figure, anyway!
Click the link above to check out the first video I’ve made with my new GoPro, and to be taken into the magical landscape of the grampians! We went on a camping trip (in my tiny little pink hatchback) over new years for 2017/18. The moon was huge, the weather was warm, and we didn’t even get through all of our drinks! But oh, we tried.
I also got very excited about going over the west gate so I filmed the whole thing!
We had a fantastic weekend and I finally got to tick this roadtrip off my bucket list! Stay tuned for more quality content on 93.7 STEPH FM!
Love and laughs,
Of course being the start of the year I have been doing some thinking about my goals, one of them is that I want to be a sporty / fit kind of person. I chose a “feeling goal” rather than a measurable goal because it just works better for me. ANYWAY. This Sunday morning I got out of bed excited to go on a run, and while I was out there I learned a lot.
I learnt that moving my body feels good. That I have a while to go before my body gets used to having more asked of it. That the fresh morning air feels so good in my lungs. And that outside of my comfort zone is where I find myself.
Anxiety and nervousness has been a running theme throughout my life, and as far as I have come from being a painfully shy girl to the life of the party at times, I am still so afraid. Of what? Am I more afraid of the world, or afraid of myself?
Here is another “feeling goal” that I’ve set myself for 2018: be a creator. I want to write and DIY and film and sing, all of it! And I want to do it without judging myself. I want my creativity to be about PLAYING again, not shame! And beyond the fear of being seen there is a beautiful reality where my art is a part of my life again, helping things make sense and bridging the gap between my inner world and the real world.
So, in that spirit I sat down and wrote this post. Its not much, but its me right now. I am going to keep writing this year and I’m really excited to share all of this with you. For now, I hope you are having an equally lovely Sunday morning! I am now going to make myself a coffee and watch an episode of Downton Abbey with my knitting before any other household members wake up.
Love ya guts,